I sold my soul, but not to the Devil
I sold my soul to a teenage girl
and all that she asked in return for my spirit
Was that I fall in love with her
I told her that without my spirit
I did not think I would be capable of love
She cut my name in to her arm
I think that she has suffered enough
I held her closely in my arms
Until our hearts did beat as one
She fell asleep unaware
That the next morning I would be gone
From a girl to a woman to an angel
She shall live, she shall love, she shall grow
Fate suggested I leave her
To eternally mingle our souls
But there will be no trace of my existence
I simply will have never been
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Screaming.
Screaming.
Why can't my brain stop
Seething,
Seething?
I'm over it,
My heart is breaking,
Shattered,
Though I'm not too sure why
This pain, though invisible, is far too inevitable
And the depth of this misery is unknown
Though I wish I could stop, I do not know what to think
My world is washing with the trash down the sink,
Torment, I say, my heart, it strains to bear it,
Never can I quite say what I mean,
Fighting at the words,
That tighten around my throat,
Constricting my breathing,
Smothering smoke.
My poetry is ashes,
It cannot stand on its own,
Ashes from ashes,
It will return again.
My mind has
I'm so sorry
But i can't take it anymore
love me, hate me..
My eyes are filled with tears
and my heart is drenched in ice
there's one thing that makes me feel
aside from yor voice
and as i drag the blade
across my now painless wrist
I know
somewere deep inside
im hoping you'll notice
Realize im bleeding
Over you
That you'll come save me..
But i know..
You'll never pull me back up
no..
You'll shove me back farther
and i...
wish i could see your eyes one last time
Pray to something that your heart weren't empty
My love is meaningless to you
even though..
i gave everyting to you
I should have known..
Im nothing...
May
You've pierced my heart and left me to die
I sit all alone and wonder why
It's hard to go on without a heart
It was your razorblade words that tore it apart
Scribbling down sentences to describe how I feel
Nothing I write can feel this real
The mirror reflects a pain that will never fade
I'm trapped in a mess that I've made
Duct taping broken pieces that fit into place
Mascara running down my face
At a frantic pace my fingers missed
A lose piece fell and slit my wrist
Just enough to see a peek of red
The way this night ended I'd rather be dead
Please don't let him bring you down
I don't want to watch you waste away
I wish I could run to your arms
And promise you a better day
I want you to surrender
The awful games you play
Just for once in your life
I wish you'd ask me to stay
I watch you from my window
As you give into his demand
I know you just want to be "cool"
And you think I don't understand
But as the days fly past
And I wait for your call
I start to think you don't care
Because I'm nothing at all
Then I get depressed
And slowly wither away
I can think of nothing else
Except that one day
When you told me I was yours
And you loved me true
Now I look in th
It's sad,
How people lock themselves up,
In their own little world.
We lie to ourselves,
Say that everything's alright,
Everythings fine.
We wear the mask,
And act the part,
And say it's all part of the show.
We live in boxes,
See in darkness,
And speak in lies.
I't's our world
That we live in,
Why should it change?
I didn't know love until I met you.
Nothing in my life had ever felt so true.
You were the reason I went day to day,
Washing all of my depression away.
I wish I could make everything all right,
Every second I think of that night.
The way you broke my heart with only few words.
Did more to me than being stabbed by a thousand swords.
I didn't know pain until I met you.
Even know, nothing has ever felt so true.
You used to be the reason I went day to day,
But now your make me wish I could fade away.
I cant breathe
I want to but no air comes out
I want to speak but no words come out
Why do I feel... hurt?
I feel betray
I feel like love had forgotten me
Like God only help those who have love
My heart hurts
My heart feels like a thousand needles went through my chest
and now its bleeding slowly for me to die
Why
Why when I try to move my hands to touch the ground I can't
Touch the ground
Just to know its still there
Just to know I am still alive
Broken
I feel like a broken doll
Shatter into pieces
Pieces all over the floor
With no one there to put me back together
...no one...
Will fix me
No one wi
In my dreams
It was me in your arms
My lips on yours
There was only us
And the clouds
And the stars
It was the world and us
It was us against the world
But in your arms I could take it
Anything the world dished out
And with your kisses I was strong again
In my dreams it was me in your arms
My lips on yours
But in reality
It's always been her
Do you love?
Do you hate?
Do you stop to appreciate?
The feelings someone has for you?
The things that keep you from being blue?
Have you loved?
Have you lost?
Have you tried no matter what the cost?
Do you love her?
Does she love you?
Will you ever find out if it is true?
Have you loved while taking hate?
Is it she who doesn't appreciate?
Are you lost?
Are you confused?
Is it all leaving your heart bruised?
Is it real?
Is it faking?
Is it my heart that's slowly breaking?
Does it hurt?
Does it kill?
Does it make you never want to heal?
A broken heart is a great deal.
A broken heart may never heal.